When your thoughts go a wandering

Lions, lions everywhere?  Why lions?  Well, I thought it was brought about because Johnathan has a “happy napper” that he sleeps in (rather than a sleeping bag) rather like a tiger and I had just been going to finish off before bed.

But what was that?   Lions and now elephants…..ah yes.  This week will be 13 years since Natalie left us.  I can’t say I understand it, or any of our other losses in fact, we didn’t get an answer as to why but I can say that I am mostly at peace with it now.  

St Valentine’s  day – a day of love.  And yes, it IS a day of love for us but one where we also celebrate our love of our children and the blessing that God has given us of a son.  And yes, it IS a blessing.  EVERY child is a blessing.  Yes, we may think we are going demented at times but even in those moments we get when life is either not good for us or them, they are STILL a blessing.

I have always loved children – in fact, I can’t ever remember NOT loving them and I could tell you hundreds (if not thousands) of stories of times I had with different ones  and what I had done with them, or little funny incidents   

Navigating a world of childhood behaviour, autism and my own mental health has NOT been easy – especially with Covid wending it’s weary way around us!  But I have now got a therapist that I trust and she has been amazing..  She “gets” me and where I am coming from.  I hope you don’t take this as meaning I didn’t trust ANY OTHER mental or physical health professionals because I had had some wonderful experiences with many of them – actually for both myself and Johnathan and also some for Kevin. And I hope to, and I KNOW that I will meet many more wonderful medical professionals again.

As you can see, a wide variety of things, but that’s how life goes sometimes, isn’t it?