I had the carer office person come to assess me.  It took 3 hours and went through EVERYTHING carefully - so carefully that we touched on the past and all the baby losses. 

Well, i went into hospital before Valentine’s Day and returned home before Easter.  It has been really weird trying to get back to ‘normal” life again, but with needing more support than I did before. 

Coming up to Easter, as you know, is a very precious time for Christians.  Established at what is now called “The Last Supper” before Christ’s death and resurrection.

I am sure I have been in quite a few situations where I haven’t got a plan B, plan A was the one set in my mind and the fact that has all fallen to pieces is thrusting me into conjuring up a plan B quickly. 

As I have said in other posts, I have been in hospital a long time.  And am delighted to be home. But the transitional period back to normal life can be quite frustrating.

Do you ever feel like you’ve come to the end of yourself and you just want to give up but you know you can’t?  I guess I have been there FAR too many times.

When you have expectations not only the ones you put on yourself, or the ones you believe others have on you. 

Do you ever have a song in mind, that you just can’t get to STOP?  I have one on my mind for the last few days.  And that’s not anything that happens to you. 

As you probably know if you read what I write regularly, I have been in hospital for nine weeks and wasn’t writing regularly.

How are you all doing?  I’ve been thinking about writing and carrying on with one of the books I have already started.

There are so many differing emotions and thoughts swirling round my mind as I prepare to go home from the hospital.

I have just been reading a book that has been one in which I can really identify with the main female character. Truthfully, I am unsure exactly what to think or feel about it

Today, as you may or may not know, is Mother’s Day in the UK (I know it’s not the same in the US but am not sure if we are unique in celebrating it in this particular day).

Have you ever found it hard to make a decision? When you feel so overwhelmed by the sheer weight and intensity of what it could mean to you?

How are you all doing? I know you have been wondering where I am and what is going on. It has been a long time since I have written I know and I have been wanting to.

I don’t know if you have realised (probably because I haven’t made it clear before I don’t think) we have three animals - my little dog Maisie and the two ginger cats, Melody and Tara.

Have you got this condition, or know someone who has?  I am pretty certain I have had it for years but only knew of it recently.

I don’t know if you’ve read the things I have written to you about his yet or not but I wanted to show you something that I feel is excellent work from him.

Well yes, here I am still in hospital as you have no doubt guessed judging by the lack of posts last week. I will admit last week wasn’t great for me.

I am not going to lie to you. I try to be as honest as is possible with the words I use to try and communicate the message I have for you.