Years ago I don’t know if I told you but I never thought I could change my self talk because I didn’t even know what it actually was or even meant.

As you know, we are coming up to Christmas and I am thoroughly enjoying watching Christmas movies while I continue to get better. 

I just realised that I haven’t written anything dedicated to Christmas and thought I would do so right now. 

I was wondering what would really make me feel at home and actually there are quite a number of things.  Being grateful for the people we love and the blessing they are to us is so important.

It’s actually been a bit weird being home again.  Not that home is weird but I think I am still adjusting to the use of a cpap machine. 

Many thoughts about how I was treated by different people in the ward this last visit.  And actually the experience was much better than the last one.  

One of the things I have had to learn and discover is that if I am not careful, I can be a negative influence on other people.

Having written one post on influence I thought was going to be it, finished, but it appears not. I think there are some things around the subject of influence that needs to be looked at a bit closer.

Well today marks the, let me think, wow - 17 years ago I started the operations that made a dramatic difference in my life.

It’s strange because yesterday I was so tired, I felt like I was wrapped up in a heavy blanket and just couldn’t/didn’t want to move. 

Well, as you know I am back home after some time in hospital.  It is wonderful starting to pick up family life again and have my own bed to sleep in. 

Although I agreed to the plan to change Johnathan’s small tent for a bigger one that could put a resting area in with loads of his soft toys to lie on.

So yay!  I am at HOME again now.  No more hospital!  How delightful!  Do you know that it can be absolutely EXHAUSTING and STRESSFUL being a patient in hospital. 

When things go wrong, because we never live a perfect life because we all make mistakes and sometimes they impact other people. 

As you know if you have read much of my material online, that my son is autistic but I knew he was a real blessing after the loss of four children. 

Now I know you are probably looking at the computer screen and thinking that you DO recognise different abilities.

As I am lying here, trying to relax I thought to myself what can I share with you all that has not only helped me but might even help you.

Now, there has been very few days that I have been well.  So I thought the only thing for it is to write when the pain is agony.

There are times in life where you have to advocate on behalf of yourself or someone else.

Well, yes, there is advocating and advocating. I have tried a number of times to achieve getting things that we need as a family.