Taking Credit For What You Do

Johnathan was doing something on his ipad that I hadn’t seen him do before and he told me he was doing a bit of FlipaClip most days (if that’s how you say it) and he was doing some of what they suggested doing most days.

So I immediately said that it was amazing and Johnathan wasn’t convinced.  Now I know with anxiety and depression from experience that it is so easy to ignore the good you’ve done and basically not acknowledge it at all.  

Then I thought about myself and when I moved up here to Scotland, alone (well except for Mia my cat) only having met ONE lady who lived here and the man who took me to see a flat.  Actually, truthfully I don’t know WHO it was and if he passed me in the street I wouldn’t recognise him.

Almost everybody I met was astonished at the courage and bravery I had to drive from London to nearly Glasgow in ONE day.  I mean I literally just ran into the motorway services, did a pee and grabbed a snack pack for my lunch and kept going   Poor Mia was in a cage next to me on the front passenger seat, yowling the whole way!

The only time she’d even BEEN in a carrier was when I collected her and she went to the vet who lived about half a mile away so to put her in a crate and drag her away from everything she had ever known to move to Scotland with me.  I decided the kindest thing to do for her and me was to make sure she stayed an indoor cat because she didn’t know where we were.  

Everyone told me how brave and courageous it was but at the time it felt different,  I just brushed it off as not being important but actually it was quite an achievement, and I need to acknowledge it as such.