That “meh” Feeling

Yep that one.  Maybe it’s the Monday blues as you start work, I don’t know.  But I do know that all of us have had it and seen other having it.  It’s not a pleasant feeling, is it?

So then, what CAUSES that feeling?  Well there could be many things.  To do with work, or family or anything about your world and life.  Having a think about it, I wonder if it’s tied to depression and anxiety.

There are days when depression gets the better of you and you just can’t face anything.  And on those days it’s ok.  Don’t worry about it (anxiety) but remember the hope that things will improve and get better.  Because it will.  You will be able to get the motivation to move again.  It may not be today or tomorrow but it will happen.

Sometimes I have felt that the motivation or inspiration will never return and it feels like you’re pushing a rock up a steep slope in driving wind and rain, making the ground soft making it harder with every step you take.  And on those days I’ve found the best thing to do is be gentle with myself, not berate myself for not getting up and doing something or whatever it is I had imagined I would do.  Life can afford to wait another day.  Now I’m not saying this is easy to do.  I can tell you frankly it isn’t.

Depression can come in so many forms.  But you CAN fight back.  Get some help.  Go see the doctor.  Make time to do something you enjoy (a mug of tea in a china mug is my enjoyment).  When it just feels too much, we can still do things that make us feel good.  And yes, I had my mug of tea today.   I don’t care whether or not you do anything on your “meh” days, but I DO care that you do things that will help to start making you feel better.  

When I was going through a tough time once, someone told me to go out to the shops and get some nail polish.  I did, but I didn’t realise that the time that I was doing what made someone ELSE feel good about themselves but to me nail varnish is annoying because it doesn’t even stay on a week and I have to put it on what feels like constantly and a waste of time.  But I wasn’t doing something that made ME feel good.

So choose one thing that makes you feel better and just do it.  I know you’ll feel even a tiny bit better if you can do it.  Your choice will do that.  Even if it’s only one thing on that day.